JELMS ` the nsgs of O8

Wednesday, February 3

A good year?

I'm curious.

Why does everyone think 2010 will be a good year?

I hate how when one thing gets solved, another complication arises.
I hate how one day you're happy, the next day you're not.
It's a never-ending cycle, and I guess that's life.

I hate how life is so easy for some people, and I hate how some try to make it hard for themselves.
I've forgotten what it's like to not have to worry about something.
I hate how nothing is working out at the moment.
I hate how it's been over half a year, and nothing has been resolved.
I hate how I think everyone is happy except me.

"Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway."

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Monday, January 25

Lonely in a relationship

I'm blogging because I'm home alone despite it being a public holiday tomorrow.
No desire to leave the house, watching Federer absolutely caning Hewitt's ass in the Australian Open.
I feel somewhat unsatisfied. For the last few nights I've been out, I've had to pick up my drunk boyfriend from somewhere and sometimes take his friends (some whom live on the other side of Sydney) home. I have no complaints about this, well... some but I got over it. I went out today during my lunch break to buy a Vday present for him, about 3 weeks early and first time I've been so overly prepared. I was so happy, so excited to see him and obviously so forgotten his previous arrangements with his friends.
Although, I knew that there was no way he would make a last minute cancellation on his friends for me, I still looked out my window every time I heard a car drive past. So I'm sitting here, eyes on the tennis but my ears and heart are listening and hoping that a car will stop outside my house and he will appear from it.

Dream On.
It's time to go out and find people who'll appreciate my company.

;)

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Thursday, January 7

The history of JELMS

This blog was established one fine day in 2004 under a different name "SHMEL" however this was quickly amended in 2005 to "JELMS" following the exit of "H" and the entering of "J" - JENDO !

Come to think of it, its been a long hard path girls. SIX YEARS of laughter, tears, stress, anxiety; emotions mostly derived from academics or boys. When have we really concentrated on ourselves? Yes, perhaps when purchasing clothes and makeup. But is that not to impress OTHERS anyway??

In 2010, I ask of you, do those little things that make YOU happy. Stop hiding your smile on the train when you're reading a sweet or funny text message. Don't stop singing in the car just because others are there and you're conscience of your voice. Gain the courage to say hello to a cute random boy and love the person you are!

Wishing everyone a (belated) truly HAPPY new year!

On a different note, we're entering SECOND year of university! Although we have one year's worth of experience up our sleeves, I'm still feeling the same nervousness, excitement and anticipation! Sad thing is, our differing universities, courses & majors means we'll all be busy with our own lives and not enough time to catch up! And no, attending parties does not constitute as catching up merely bonding over alcohol. Like they say, there's not such thing as too busy, if you want it you'll MAKE the time , you getting my jist?

Enough bullshit,

LOVEJELMS!

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Wednesday, November 18

HEARTBREAKER - MSTRKRFT

Hello ladies!

Haha, sounds so sleazy when I say it out aloud.

Anyway, I'm procrastinating right now. Badly? It's now 11:06PM Adelaide time, and my exam is tomorrow @ 9:20AM. But don't worry, I only woke up @ like.. 9PM so I'll be awake probably til 1PM tomorrow ! :)

Adelaide's been having a massive heatwave with temperatures ranging from 35-40c every day! Though since ending uni and turning nocturnal for exams, I haven't had much to do with the sun so I havent suffered too much. Also, for some reason I thought these temperatures were somewhat normal and I guess I'll sorta be missing them when I come back home? Other than that, the weather has been superb (esp. because there is low humidity) at night! PERFECT for late night strolls!

SHAME all this is wasted on "studying" aka mainly procrastinating.

Other than the love for everything thats happened in adelaide, I feel suddenly homesick.. I'm imagining all the chilled outings il have.. with little or no baggage (god its so annoying carrying around things) sitting by the water and like... jst basking in the not so harsh sun :)

oh its going to be lovely!

cant believe the year is almost over

heres hope that none of us fail and have to repeat!

and some things im looking forward to these holidays:

- getting a job
- getting my P's finally.. LOL..
- walking my temporary puppy :)
- learning how to cook
- chilling by my pool :)
- getting into sport? (biggest urges to play tennis and do rockclimbing?? bizarre.. i know)
- laneway festival! (if i end up going!)
- shopping. lots of shopping!
- catching up with everyone :)
- having an awesome and massive NYE
- family time :)

anyways, lol am so bored/procrastinating badly so this is my cue to leave.

Adieu!

xx jendo

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Tuesday, August 25

what it all comes down to.

Everyday we pass hundreds of people.
We acknowledge the presence of about twenty.
We hold conversations with ten of them for longer than 2 mins.
We wish for several things.
Yet we only wish for the ONE person.

AND if that one person has a significant other
Thousands of thoughts creep into your mind.
Is she prettier?
Smarter?
More independent?
More dependent?
He likes short girls?
He likes taller girls?

And then a suddent realisation,
It must have been her perfect skin
Her petiteness
Her long luscious hair
Her hot aura
She's better. Of course shes better.

Today I realised beauty is only skin deep.
Yes, to some extent it gets you noticed more often than others if you have the right genes. But a beautiful personality keeps a relationship so much longer than a beautiful face.

You may be an allrounder in looks, intelligence, figure, career but if you haven't got the compassion and courage to pursue what you want, then you've got nothing.

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Thursday, June 18

closer - nine inch nails

Hello ladies!

Blogging again because procrastination has begun! Tis the season for exams ... though some of youse may already be suffering, I'm yet to even begin ! gah!
so unkeen for this mumbojumbo !

anyway with my exams starting in 6days and me having little progress (i've only really gotten half way through learning about macromolecules which really isnt too difficult but i'm so bloody inefficient its not funny) oh and sleeping at 6am, waking up @ 4pm is NOT healthy at all !
gah !

anyway through that long paragraph I cuoldnt even remember what the point of it was other than to ramble ..

mmm well its safe to say now that all romantic interests in adelaide have frayed out into mere distant strands of once upon a time
and
well
it freaks me out a lot more than i can remember ever being freaked out.
which freaks me out even more.

bah !

no one comes here to read anyway ahaha which is good i think because by the time they read whatever ive rambled about , i know i am no longer that crazy !

to another night of studying and singing out a loud in a big empty room ! :)

<3 jendo

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Sunday, May 31

good, bad and undecided

That fire you ignited
Good, bad and undecided
Burns when I stand beside it
Your light is ultraviolet

Visions so insane
They travel unraveling through my brain
Cold when I am denied it
Your light is ultraviolet
Ultraviolet

Ultraviolet - Stiff Dylans

Oh my lord! I have fallen in love with this song all over again! And the whole notion of whirlwind adolescent love ! Am currently downloading the movie 'Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging' because I so crave and miss this whole giddiness and coming of age crap! I totally recommend it to all so we can all remember what it's like aye!

Other than that, I am procrastinating ! And sick! and trying to equate them to each other..but alas I know too well that I'm only kidding myself!

Last night was Thomas's birthday! Love that kid ahaha and am incredibly fond of him! ahaha went sorta bar hopping? First stop was Rosemont? A pub which made it pretty clear girls weren't ever meant to step foot inside. Then back off to unilodge (my humble abode) where several of us proceeded to take absinthe shots - put a sugar cube in a shot of absinthe, put it on a spoon, light it on fire, wait for it to extinguish, mix it in absinthe, shot it, chase it down with rasberry drink :) or chase it down with anything! Makes me think of Alice in Wonderland with the rabbits. Hahaha but absinthe don't do jack - well not the crap 60% ones. And definately not only one shot. Especially if you've built a tolerance (boo experience) !

After which, we headed off to Londen Tavern which is a nightclub. Awkward mingling and dancing ( I was sick and refused to take off my constricting coat ) so after a while we headed off to the Cavern - another nightclub? where there was a private function for the members of St Mark's College. Totally crashed their scene (giggle) and proceeded to do the same as I had done @ Londen.

To finish the night off, half our group split up with one half trying to crash a med party (with which they failed and stayed @ the Cavern) and the other half - me, Thomas, Lauren, Tony, Steven and Raf heading towards Crazy Horse - one of the few strip clubs only metres away from my humble abode.

and WOW. IT IS WHAT YOU EXPECT IT TO BE BUT NOT EXPECT IT TO BE. It's just like . wtf!
I don't know how to describe it without going into detail and right now I cbf.

But TWO things to note:
1) the EXPRESSION on guys faces when the stripper begins to strip = O_O. They will have delayed responses to anything you say and will continue to have the same expression.
2) those strippers SURE CAN CLIMB POLES. the most fascinating one was where the stripper climbed the pole with ONLY HER LEGS, UPSIDE DOWN.
(WOW RESPECT WTF)

hahahaha well yes just thought I'd share that experience with you all and now I can finally cross that off my list of things to do ahahha

Other than that, I have a series of conversations and gestures concerning my little crush I wish I could break down into little tiny pieces and analyse them with all of you but you are all too far away and too disconnected to understand the situation! Tres tragic!

AND finally! I don't know, it is that time of year - procrastination (actually that seems to be all year round) and thus my blog. I miss the days of highschool where our classes were pretty pointless come to think of it, recess and lunch, trainstations and what not, SPORT! (im such a fatty, i havent done any exercise since getting to adelaide) and of course seeing each other every single day! I miss my homies!

=(

love youse all - will think of youse when talking about the HSC, watching Merlin, Facebooking, msn and etc :[

xxxxx jendo

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Monday, May 25

drama is what we girls live for.

i wonder who still reads entries from this blog but since someones obviously updated our profile .. sally? and jendo's been writing, i shall chime in on the fun ! =) wow we've had this for like.. 5 years now? including the SHMEL times maybe close to 6 years. LOL our friendship is forever guyss !! <3<3

finals in 2-3 weeks, still not feeling the pressure nor the urge to study for it. lols uni has turned us all into lethargic stressless fatties. We eat, we gossip, we bloat. Monday catch up's per usual, hehehe more goss and some bitching. Wonderful. So relaxing, venting out all our sorrows, over a CHEESEBURGER =D and icemocha, which might otherwise ACTUALLY kill me. There is a particular someone I would like to strangle right now, however I shall restrain from doing so because thats just not a very nice thing to do hehe (:

ON A HAPPIER NOTE, we had peer mentoring today !! hehehe just lovely people and so much fun ! elaine found her wallet !! hoooray. I totes agree on sex & the city marathon. AT MY HOUSE guyss !! after all our exams. with our pina coladas ;) hehehehe

cbb.

much love
rucccccyyyyyyy

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Sunday, May 10

i saw sparks

herro girls!

wow another blog so soon! yes i know ! wtf??
haha it just means the procrastination has increased as has the work load at an alarming rate ! that is - increasingly exponential! :O :S

well had the allied health affair last night! I slept most of the day because went to friends' 21st the night before and mixed a dangerous cocktail - midori, jager and vodka with grape juice ! random amounts of each to create a quite non-alcoholic tasting mix! had an awesome night - playing kings (soo fun, i must teach youse all) and then playing big 2 with the internationals and thennnnn singing sing star! then it was off to london tavern (nightclub) with free entry on friday!

and gosh, had a blast for the beginnning...... met a mining engineer guy ;) and although its not up to the standard that me and sally are used to (remember the hotties on the unsw open day tour?) he was quite charming and cute!
but then alas! i was dragged away by several things =( and then promptly forgot what he looked like :P

anyway lasni was like spewing and dying and i know this is quite bad , but i got quite annoyed. then she proceeded to stomp on my foot with her heel and apaz i looked like i wanted to stab her ... guys im an angry drunk sometimes :( and i cant help it - but i also know that i look 100x more angry then i actually am ! sooo i guesssss thats bad?

anyway soo woke up to a quivering stomach and after drinking two cups of water, spewed it all out 1minute after and like passed out in bed again .
oooo did not feel good!

soo wehn i was getting ready for allied health i basically had 40mins only and yeh didnt turn out as nice as i always envisioned. but still it was pretty acceptable :P

allied health affair - ended up hanging out wiht most people i knew and only met a few new peeps ! quite a bit of drama happened i guess towards the end of the night and what started out as a very very flattering gesture and prompt refusal ended up ending as a no means no situation but my end desperately trying to be as explicit as i could without being explicit whilst the other party being annoyingly insistent, demanding far too much when i hadnt even gave in at all with even the tiniest expectation. clearly, this person was jumping the gun - the gun that would never go off - or at least until i turned out to be a person who didnt have the morals i had, or someone who was comfortable enough to do so.

it was only until a certain person, who thanks to lasni, was around that my dilemma was solved. but it took so many uncomfortable moments for the burden to lift, away and out of my life for at least the night.
trying not to be at all scarred by the potentially life changing moment, and struggling between 'he was drunk and is usually a good friend and maybe im assuming too much' and 'hes drunk and he wants to rape me', i hopped off to bed and woke up 12 hours later to find half my day was wasted and now i cbf starting and am patiently awaiting for the simpsons and merlin to start.

anyway there was my interesting exciting rant of the night .
and yes i will be learning some self defence moves
and i sincerely hope that the other star of my blog wont ever read this in fear of offense - because he really is a nice guy...... just no. means. NO.

xxxxxxx
jendo

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Thursday, May 7

i feel like... doing loner things :)

herro girls !

felt like blogging today haha because I've ran out of things to procrastinate with!
So.. here I am .. sitting in my room in dear old Adelaide whilst Bondi Vet is on tv in background.. my door is open so when i lean back I can see the screen.. and Lasni's hungry so shes heating up dinner while I seriously cbf!

There are sooo many things on my mind right now! and sooo little time :S I have quite a lot due for uni and I seriously feel like time is slipping through my fingers!!! And i need to catch up on sleep because some rowdy med men crashed our place. We even debated about aborigines, john howard, kevin rudd, obama, mccain, random random stuff for about 2 hours! Biggest wtf everrrr haahhaa!

Anyway, have to finish my 'journal of reflection' which is such a task! because you just feel really gay reflecting about your lab and clincal experiences and 'feelings'!! seriously!! whereas blogging is so much more easier and so less formal!

Also have to do an assignment on infection control! BAHH but I guess it is important - ive seriously become super paranoid about getting sick, saliva spray and blood contamination!! ahhh and SWINE FLU!!! zomg have to avoid all the exchange students in my building!! freaky!!

Um....... and AND! there is the "Allied Health Affair" on this saturday which is like a ball for med, dent, pharm, nursing, physio and etc... (i.e. health stuff) peoples! Can't wait !! And i totally have this awesome look planned out!

catty eyes slightly rockish, simplish black dress (I got it for $10!!), white stockings and hopefully black pumps/boot heels? + goldish necklace + pearls! exceeepptt id spend prob 60-100 on the heels + 30$ on the necklace! wtf! and dude I dont have the legs for white stockings :(

anyway I'll tell you all how it goes... or not !

mmm... also have a bunch of shit to do .. like wax carving teeth ! >_< and other assignments.. bloody oof!

mmmmm but i am looking forward to DENTAL PUB CRAWL =D ! Apaz its awesome and I plan on going to a strip club afterward .. you know.. just to see what its like ! I'm pretty sure I'll spend like 5 minutes in there and feel ubeerrrr awkward!!

rar anyway time to eat dinner.. and then maybe get some work done??

It's not toooo cold here but its not fantastic weather either .

ooo and what sucks about being on limited internet? I CAN'T DOWNLOAD 90210 OR GOSSIP GIRL!!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I NEEEED TV!!

bahhh and I need to go to ikea!

rawr
mmm

llooovveee you all chickybabes! xxx jendo :)

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