♥ Sunday, November 6 @ 12:31 am

Is it still me that makes you sweat? Am I who you think about in bed? When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress? Then think of what you did And how I hope to God he was worth it. When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch his skin. I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat? No, no, no, you know it will always just be me. I need to focus But I also love bitter songs. It's like blah I know I'm being silly. And right now I'm being quite paranoid. And I have no right to be paranoid. I should be focusing on other things. And it really is all because of you. And I know its not intentional. It's all me. It's me and my stupid feelings, like all the fucking time. I sometimes wish I could go back to the heartless days but I'm glad I'm being pulled back in to a place where things have meaning... other than just empty pleasures. I don't regret, just matured. But the problem with giving things meaning and caring is that it fucking hurts when it goes bad. I hope you're suffering as badly as I am.

Kachang!

♥ Tuesday, September 20 @ 11:14 pm

humans never cease to amaze or... betray in a ship that i've put so much effort into, i certainly have not received as much from it but the ONE thing, i do hope to achieve is honesty. how hard could it be right? speak whats on your mind. say what you really feel. do as you say today, i felt that i've failed in what i thought i had achieved. i thought i had the best friendships the world could bring. i boast to others about our openness and honesty to one another so to find out that you're hiding things from me. its a real stab in the back of course, you had your good reasons but it still hurts all the same because i always put in the effort and whilst i'm not always there physically emotionally i'm always ready to support each and every one of your actions no matter how wrong they are no matter how others judge you for what you do i need a break from all the fucked up shit that you guys tell me guess its good that i didnt know i will no longer be that person you always lean on yet you selectively tell things to because im jumping ships to one which might not disappoint me as much

Kachang!

♥ Wednesday, September 7 @ 02:57 am

i wonder about the past, the present and the future. will i ever find true, obsessive, passionate love sometimes i feel like i'm only here because i can be because stepping outside my comfort zone is too uncomfortable i'm scared of being alone its not fair on either one of us but until i have the courage to say it to you i'll be here in guilt can you really still be happy knowing that i can never love you 100% is it really enough to just have me by your side because if you really love me you'll just let me go...

Kachang!

♥ Monday, May 9 @ 09:38 am

Hi all! Totally forgot we had such a blog.. Came upon it via Tumblr haha. Our jelms tumblr is kind of dead.. I believe this blog is somewhere we come whenever we want to vent or feel emo, right? Hahahaha well it's 8:39am, and I'm at SciTech studying, with my Subway strawberry smoothie omnomnom =9 Just wanted to say hi to all the jelms girls - I miss you all! We're all so busy with our lives :( Have a great day, and catch up at jendo's during the semester break lulz (that's okay with your right jendo? :D) Sally

Kachang!

♥ Sunday, February 13 @ 04:42 pm

hi guys,

wow didn't know there was still blogging here!
tumblr idea fizzled - im too lazy to switch btwn the two honestly.
anyway, reading the previous blog entries have made me quite sad, nostalgic. i miss you guys =[
we should defs have a jelms night out or something - just us five - because its been sooooooo long and its beginning to feel hard remembering 'us'.
well im back easter time so we should plan a night out together. screw uni, work, laziness - we're only young once!
and so much gossiping - i mean catching up - to do i believe!

love you all, jen

Kachang!

♥ Thursday, January 20 @ 01:21 am

Totally have not visited for 3months! Hello everyone (: THAILANNNNNDDDD

Kachang!

♥ Wednesday, November 24 @ 12:10 am

Kachang!

♥ Wednesday, November 24 @ 12:08 am

In the last 4 days.. I've spent $650-$700 on shopping..homgoodness! BUT that's because I haven't shopped in foreveeeerrr. Westfield Parramatta discounts are deadly...

Some of my purchases:


One Teaspoon L to the V Desert Tank $59.95


One Teaspoon Original Bonitas $99.99
I actually got the "Cobain" colour not this one, it's a mid sky blue :)



Nude Lucy Spy Girl Crop Tee $39.99 $20

Visited my fav store MeccaCosmetica!!! :) picked this up because my Stila foundation ran out

NARS Sheer Glow $99.99 :):):)

Also bought a bunch of other shit including a white dress + black blazer from fav asian store, cotton on side bag, lulu rose singlet, black skirt from jizz, new bras/undies, new BIKINI (!) and best bargain of the day - Hurley Fleece Jumper for half price $35! Will be good for Koreaaaa

OH and got a MAC Lipglass :)!!!

OH and I decided to dress up as Pebbles for my PwC Xmas party - the theme is dress up as any decade from 50s, 60s..... 90s. Time to cut up some clothes

SHO CUTE. wish i had a bam bam :( haha watevs

Also went to Happy High Herbs in Newtown for some partay alternativess lul. Set for stereooooooooo!

Going to look to buy a NERD WATCH online now. BAI :) <3

Kachang!

♥ Thursday, November 18 @ 10:35 am

i LOVE food

my new favourite cuisine is japanese :) goodbye italian

i love love love japanese fooood <3

i'm loving the foodblog atablefortwo. i wish i had someone who shared the same love for food as me. fine dining. it's not even a matter of being rich or poor, to be willing to pay for good food, food experiences, food culture. i want to share my love for food with someone else. i want to eventually travel around the world and eat at the top restaurants, eg. The Fatduck in England. not to say that good food can't be cheap, because no doubt some of the best food is cheap.

chef's hats, then michelin stars. i'm excited >:)

 

Kachang!

♥ Monday, November 8 @ 09:28 pm

I laughed today :). I love being surrounded by those who love me and those whom I love, what would I do without you! I had lunch with a friend today, he told me that if something wasn't working out with a girl he would end it straight away. That there's no point dragging it on because it just gets worse. I said, but what if you really love them? He responded by explaining that if it's not working, it's not working. That's just the way he is. He would tell himself to move on and that things didn't work out. The end. I hardly have this mind set right now, my belief was that if you really loved someone you could work things out. But we're at different places right now. Not that I think of it, it was all bad timing. I keep thinking to myself if this and if that, but what's the point, because everytime I hope my hope just gets shattered. So anyway, he has a point, everything he said is so true, how things would just get worse if you keep on going, pretending that everything is fine when it's not. I wish I could be as strong as him. But I know these epiphanies are only temporary, and I'll be back where I started, but as they say, time heals everything.

Kachang!